Getting to know bio dad

So, yeah, my bio dad has been coming around a lot more. We talk and its nice to get to hear his side of things. Weird too though. Still have a lot of feelings about this. Trying to get sorted out.

Conflicting emotions.

Sometimes I wish i could go back in the fog. I was less angry.

Today at work I was reminded of just how not the norm adoption really is. A co worker and I were talking about how he and his wife want to have a family. He said that for him and her adoption is not an option. He wants a child that's genetically related to him. Which is normal! A lot of people think that is a selfish attitude. No. It's a NORMAL attitude. People want their own kids. Most adoptive parents I know did not have adoption as their first option. It was usually third.
That's how it is supposed to be. She my family wasn't like that.

Having a tough time with some things

I'm on a few Facebook groups for adoptees. There is a lot of anger on there. As there should be. Adoptees have always gotten the short end of the stick. What really gets me is how some adoptees get so mad when people suggest that their first mothers might have been coerced or forced. Or lied to. It's like they really can't stand to hear that. I mean. My first mother is one of the ones who as a mother she was pretty negligent. I don't know. Just some random thoughts I am having. It makes me sad because I know a few first mothers who were forced, lied to. And tricked.

Managed to switch between my aol and google accounts.

Family time drawing to an end.

My brother and his wife are here visiting. Today is actually the last day. They fly out tomorrow. I am going to miss them but I can't wait for some relax time. We've done so much traveling it's crazy. Just want to kick back and watch a movie or something . Feel bad about being relieved but oh well.

Blogging

Haven't really been all about blogging lately. Life seems to keep me pretty busy so that's that I guess. I downloaded the app onto my iPod so maybe I'll blog more. I don't know.