Adoption has just fallen to the wayside for me right now. I just don't have the enegrty sometimes to get into discussions or anything.

I feel bad that I never update.

But to be honest, sometimes I don't know what to say. At this point in my life, I feel kind of lost and very alone. The whole thing with Alfio left me shaken and sad. I don't know how to move on, or if I even want to. I find myself looking at the phone hoping that he might actualy call. I originally wanted him to call so I could have the pleasure of yelling at him and hanging up. Now, I just want to know he's ok. But I might never know that.

Four years is a long time. I hope eventually I can move on. Because at this moment, I'm not even close.

A New year

Here's to hoping it goes better then the last one!