Sitting here, trying to stay cool

I've just been thinking over some things about myself. My entire life I've spent looking after someone. First it was my mother, who was blind. Then my nephew came along and I had to watch him while my friends went out and enjoyed their teen years. Now it's my aunt. Granted, i managed to fit in some good times. I had some friends who were close but it was still not fun sometimes.

I feel selfish for wanting more then being someone's caretaker. I hate that I want to go and get a job so I can make my own way in the world. But it's normal, right?

Cousin Melody's birthday

Went to my little cousin Melody's birthday party today. Everything went pretty well. The food was good. They had these wraps that were amazing, to me anyway. I'm easily pleased though. I think some were roast beef and the others were chicken salad. plus there were finger foods like baby carrots, cherry tomatoes and the like.

There was quite alot of kids there, mainly teenage ones, like Melody, who is turning 14 tomorrow. Most of them went home after awhile though. The presents were unwrapped and cake was eaten. I talked with this one guy named Benny who I met at another party for my aunt Jane's mom.

I was just looking around at the party and feeling like, for the first time in awhile, like I was wanted there. It was a feeling I hadn't had in a long time. It was quite nice!

So a relative of mine recently joined a group on facebook called "Make Drug Testing Mandatory For Welfare." Literally made me cringe. I can't believe people still buy into the stereotype that everyone on welfare are just a bunch of drug addicts who don't want to get jobs. It still pisses me off to think of how tough some people had getting on welfare.

Running around and thinking

So today I had quite a bit of running around to do. I had to return some books to the library and pick up some cds I requested at the other library. The buses were running terribly and on top of that it was raining. It did stop after awhile and I managed to stay dry. The one bus I got on was so crowded I couldn't deal with it. I ended up getting off the bus because I couldn't stand it. Luckily there was another one coming so I wasn't waiting too long.

After all that, I got to the library and go my cds. One was Lady Gaga's Fame Monster and the other was Ke$ha. her stuff is pretty catchy, but nothing impressive. I'll have to check out Lady Gaga later. Got the Beauty and The Beast soundtrack and Evanescence's Open Door. I just realized that they rent out cds for the same amount of time as books.

I was just thinking, why are people so threatened by differing opinions or things that are different? Any idea about this? Human nature maybe, or fear of the unknown?

My very first blog post here!

Just testing things out here. I need a place to talk about things that others wont agree with. I'll go more in depth later.

Renee