Oh MY GOD!

I got into a conversation with a friend via yahoo messenger a few days ago. During the conversation, I expressed my desire to have children. I jokingly said I better hurry the hell up or I wasn't going to be able to have my own. Due to age of course. That eventually led into talking about infertility.

I'll be honest, one of my fears is that I can't have children. I have no real reason for this, as my cycle's regular and all that. The only reason I've not had children is because I was with a man who didn't want any kids, and so I stayed on my birth control. Well, that relationship came to an end(badly, but that's another post entirely. So naturally, I mentioned getting off my birth control and letting my body go back to normal.

Ok, sorry back to the point. Adoption came up. She said "well you could always adopt an infant." Doing my best not to be abrasive, I messaged back" I want to breast feed". She then informed me" Adoptive mothers can breast feed, they just have to stimulate and there ya go."

UGH!! NO WAY would I ever put someone else's kid on my boob. I see no point in breast feeding if the milk was not produced naturally during pregnancy. It's just...not an idea I am comfortable with at all. I didn't even know people saw this as a viable option until recently, and the thought makes me go "Oh hell no."

Eventually, I was able to express my thoughts on the subject. I don't like the idea of it. If I don't have children naturally, I'll get a dog. If, in some alternative universe where I've lost my mind and adopted, I'd foster adopt. Hopefully the government gets it's act together and makes adoption obsolete by then, and has alternatives in place.